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"Wishing you were somehow here again."
I haven't been feeling very well lately...
Yesterday I went to therapy and found out that DCFS is going to presue my father in a civil trial.
It is a good thing but I'm just worried about my grandmother and how she's going to take it and if she even knows...
I'm happy for it but part of me just doesn't care...
I haven't cared about much for a while........
I had an odd dream last night I would indulge in but it would take to long and the biology class is oh so captivating... right
Why do I feel this way?
Why is it necessary...
I prayed for a long time last night... Asking to be healed and asking for God to break down the walls that I have built.
It felt good.
Today felt not so good, because I've been hurting in emotional ways and physical ways... and I just want all the hurt and pain to go away.
Yet it's still here, I only have myself to blame and no one else.
I don't know how to fix it and I thought I let it go but apparently I haven't. I want to but I don't know what I'm holding on to.
I'm happy with many aspects of my life, but again I feel incomplete. I've felt the absence of God before because I've pushed him away but I don't know why... It's not intentional and I want Him here.
So why am I pushing Him away?
Makes no sense to me...Not much does anymore
posted by Courtney @ 8:00 AM
2 Comments:
you'll be fine babe. trust god.
you'll be fine babe, trust me. and trust god.
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